I finally heard from Tully today and they selected another candidate. All forthe best I'm sure. Initially I was disappointed but after I thought about the changes it would have brought I decided it wasn't the right time. I'm sure I was asking too much money but I wouldn't change any of that now. It'll be interesting to see what life hands me next. It's a good day to live Macdougal.

OK so Tara was standing outside the YMCA Get off my back!!!!

I went to church today and our neighbor Betty was sitting behind me. During hospitality moment I went over and gave her a hug and she said," I love you and I see God in you." Wow! Kind of blew me away. I took Marissa to get fitted for her gown for Tara's wedding and in walked Em. Oh My God she looked beautiful!!! Really I looked at her and thought , Who is this beautiful person. Her hair was shiny and she just radiated beauty.It seems to me as if she went from being 2 to being grown so quickly. I have a picture in my mind of her holding a balloon bouquet on her first birthday. I have a picture of Tara standing outside the YMCE holding her book bag on her first day of pre-school and Marissa eating a mrshmallow off a stick. I miss those days so much at times. I am so lucky to be a mom. It is a grand day to live MacDougal!!!!!!

I wrote a post earlier bit it just vanished. We decided to stay in Clifton for now because the lady with the Geneva house wanted too much. We're going to commit to one more year and see what happens with my job search. I still haven't heard from Tully and who knows what lies ahead. Saw a picture of Tara in Colorado and it looked gorgeous. She and Dave are doing well. Hard to believe I was saying goodbye to her at this time last week. It's a good day to live......

Yesterday I found a job posting at Hobart ( Internal candidates only for now) that sounds fascinating. It's Manager of Jumpstart which is an Americorp program that has college kids teaching preschool children that are poor . I'm going to keep my eyes peeled and see if they post it to the public. We decided against the house in Geneva for now because she wants way too much. We are going to stay here for one more year and then have Scot take over. Still haven't heard from Tully but I did e-mail them yesterday. Whatever will be will be. Tara and Dave are enthralled with Colorado. How great for them to follow their dreams. It's a good day to live MacDougal

I'm at a place where I'm trying to figure out, "What's next?' Come to think about it when haven't I been at that place? My babies are grown and forging their paths, doing a wonderful job I might add. I think it's time for Scot to take care of mom for a bit. I'm getting drained and it's not making for a fantastic relationship for mom and I. She deserves better. I'll keep ya posted as to what's going on through my mind. WOW!!!! Scary. It's a good day to live.

Well Tara and David left for Colorado yesterday and I've spoken to her several times today. They have been driving straight through and should be arriving in an hour. How brave they are. It was probably one of the most emotional days I've had.They left with mostly clothes so they are starting from scratch. I sat next to someone in church today who said that her brother had gone out to Colorado 5 years ago and absolutely loved it so that was encouraging. Then Rev. Spence put a picture of the Rocky Mountains up on the screen and I thought , There's my sign. It is a good day to live MacDougal isn't it?

Well today we had Tara's shower. It was nice to see everyone. Dawn had us in stitches. I really do like Dave's parents. They're pretty down to earth. Once again I feel like I'm back in summer of last year when Tara went to NYC. I started crying just thinking about the two of them going cross country yesterday and it keeps hitting me in waves. I know it will be good for them, I've just gotten pretty close to Tara this past year and the thought of her being away for four months makes me sad. I've always said my girls are my sunshine and it's never been more true. I can be having the worst day and I'll see them and light up. I still recall sitting in church and having Tara sneak in and sit next to me. She came early in the morning from Keuka. I felt absolute joy. Here's a neat factoid, I found a single penny on one of the tables at The Palace today. I told Tara it was from Tim and her grandparents. I found one at graduation too. Coincidence? I think not. I was really proud of Em today. She made a huge amount of food, got gifts for everyone and was the entertainer. I read her card to Tara and cried my eyes out. She quoted her uncle Tim and said, " Remember those small towns will always be there". That of course reminded me that we never know when it will be the last time we see someone and of course I am crying now. I will end with.... Take good care of my baby. It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!!