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Lest anyone be confused by my comments let me clarify. I know Nicole had very loving, caring parentys with very good judgement and I know they said their " I love Yous". Just a very tragic accident.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
So herfe we are on December 9, 2006. Yesterday the roads were awful due to snow and a 17 year old girl from Midlakes, Nicloe Laraby was killed. Nicole got up, got ready for school, was 200 freet from the school and got caught up on icy roads and had a head on collision with a 60 year old woman and died. Mariissa said she went out to the courtyard at school after she got the news and several children had made snow angels and someone wrote" We love you Nicky". Here's my point: Both Tim and Nicole woke up one morning not knowing it would be their last. Both so young and vital. Did they say the things they needed to say to people they love? Did the people they love let them know what was on their hearts? Important lessons. All we have is today. Never say, " I shoulda".
Not that I'm in any position to take someone else's inventory but..... It seems to me many valuable lessons have been lost since Tim died and that is the real tragedy. Sad that the world lost Tim but Tim lived life to the fullest and truly embraced it. He did exactly what he wanted to do and most assuredly left his mark. Ever since David's accident I've lived each day not taking things for granted. Do not get me wrong I have made more than my share of mistakes but I also know that I have given of myself.
I saw Pete last week for the first time in years and he said David is still in Illinois and that last year he saw him for the first time in several years. How sad is that? Lesson lost.
Moving on let me say I love my new job. I gave way too much to work over the past ten years. I'm thankful for the opportunity to have a "Do over". Oh back to Nicole for a minute. I was going to get Marissa a used car and in fact got her car mats that say, "Marissa, Never drive faster than your guardian angel can fly" but now that little plan is on hold until Spring. I simply can't do it. Riss and I talked on the way into school yesterday because she said she wanted to borrow the car. I said the roads are bad and until you get more experience I have to say no. I went onto say that I loved her dearly and would never forgive myself if something happened to her. At that very moment Nicole was involved in a head on collision.
To go to happier things: Tara, Em and I went to Rita's to look for a wedding gown yesterday and that was fun. There's a great deal of fun in the planning. IT"S A GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!!!!!!
Not that I'm in any position to take someone else's inventory but..... It seems to me many valuable lessons have been lost since Tim died and that is the real tragedy. Sad that the world lost Tim but Tim lived life to the fullest and truly embraced it. He did exactly what he wanted to do and most assuredly left his mark. Ever since David's accident I've lived each day not taking things for granted. Do not get me wrong I have made more than my share of mistakes but I also know that I have given of myself.
I saw Pete last week for the first time in years and he said David is still in Illinois and that last year he saw him for the first time in several years. How sad is that? Lesson lost.
Moving on let me say I love my new job. I gave way too much to work over the past ten years. I'm thankful for the opportunity to have a "Do over". Oh back to Nicole for a minute. I was going to get Marissa a used car and in fact got her car mats that say, "Marissa, Never drive faster than your guardian angel can fly" but now that little plan is on hold until Spring. I simply can't do it. Riss and I talked on the way into school yesterday because she said she wanted to borrow the car. I said the roads are bad and until you get more experience I have to say no. I went onto say that I loved her dearly and would never forgive myself if something happened to her. At that very moment Nicole was involved in a head on collision.
To go to happier things: Tara, Em and I went to Rita's to look for a wedding gown yesterday and that was fun. There's a great deal of fun in the planning. IT"S A GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, October 21, 2006
life in clifton
YEAH!!!!! I got the job at Clifton Hospital. It's the Coordinator of Lyons Outpatient. I was feeling as if the weight of the world was off my shoulders as soon as I accepted the offer. Friday I was very emotional after telling my team and Bill. I was literally sick to my stomach. I've been at FLACRA for 9 years. I feel bad for my team because they are pretty rocked at the thought of me not being there. My prayer is that some caring, intelligent person fills my shoes. Marissa and I went to a Women's retreat today at the hospital. We did yoga, Qi Qong, meditative drumming and art therapy. Riss also got a massage. It was pretty fantastic. Marissa really enjoyed herself. Steve and I had a nice night last night. We watched Click together and actually sat side by side on the couch. Tomorrow Em and Shawn celebrate a year of marriage.HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! We had alot of fun last year. Okay I guess that's enough out of me. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
YEAH!!!!! I got the job at Clifton Hospital. It's the Coordinator of Lyons Outpatient. I was feeling as if the weight of the world was off my shoulders as soon as I accepted the offer. Friday I was very emotional after telling my team and Bill. I was literally sick to my stomach. I've been at FLACRA for 9 years. I feel bad for my team because they are pretty rocked at the thought of me not being there. My prayer is that some caring, intelligent person fills my shoes. Marissa and I went to a Women's retreat today at the hospital. We did yoga, Qi Qong, meditative drumming and art therapy. Riss also got a massage. It was pretty fantastic. Marissa really enjoyed herself. Steve and I had a nice night last night. We watched Click together and actually sat side by side on the couch. Tomorrow Em and Shawn celebrate a year of marriage.HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! We had alot of fun last year. Okay I guess that's enough out of me. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
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Okay so turns out the freezer wasn't broken we just blew a fuse. It took us a week to figure that one out. I've had a couple of interviews at the hospital now so we'll see what comes of that. BEST NEWS OF OCTOBER 14th ..... TARA AND DAVE ARE ENGAGED. Em and Tara came over yesterday and we were already in the planning stages. Her ring is an heirloom that was made from David's grandmother's 40th anniversary ring. It's so pretty.Marissa didn't pass her road test on the first try so we'll give it another go on the 23rd. Em and Shawn's first anniversary is October 22nd and that's fast approaching. Those two have done well.Oh, Marissa and I went to see Garrett Chapel last week with Tara and Dave. It's beautiful. Majestic. I guess that's it by way of updates for now but that's more than my share of blessings.
Okay so turns out the freezer wasn't broken we just blew a fuse. It took us a week to figure that one out. I've had a couple of interviews at the hospital now so we'll see what comes of that. BEST NEWS OF OCTOBER 14th ..... TARA AND DAVE ARE ENGAGED. Em and Tara came over yesterday and we were already in the planning stages. Her ring is an heirloom that was made from David's grandmother's 40th anniversary ring. It's so pretty.Marissa didn't pass her road test on the first try so we'll give it another go on the 23rd. Em and Shawn's first anniversary is October 22nd and that's fast approaching. Those two have done well.Oh, Marissa and I went to see Garrett Chapel last week with Tara and Dave. It's beautiful. Majestic. I guess that's it by way of updates for now but that's more than my share of blessings.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
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So it's October 1st and I actually said, "Rabbit,Rabbit" at 2a.m. before I got out of bed so let's see what good luck comes my way this month. Today Steve celebrates 24 years of sobriety. Tomorrow marks four years since Chuck died. Thursday I have an interview at the hospital and Friday it's Missy's second birthday and Marissa takes her road test. The 22nd is Em and Shawn's first wedding anniversary and the 27th is Tara's 21st birthday. Wow!!!! This month promises many gifts and emotional events. I saw Tara on Friday and she was so sick. It made me worry. Saw Em, Shawn, and Watson yesterday. Our freezer broke so Em and Shawn had to eat the top layer of their wedding cake early. Yesterday I also attended a church group on facilitating small groups. We broke out into small groups and had to share a positive spiritual experience. I chose to share about David's accident because in reality it was a time in which all I had was faith. You could hear a pin drop as I spoke and then they passed around Kleenex. I fully realized how much I've grown because I wasn't always able to speak in front of a group , let alone motivate them. I've received two thank you cards this week from people I simply listened to and offered an empathetic ear. Listening is a lost art. I'm also thinking about the approahing December 9th date and it saddens me on so many levels. I'm sad for the loss of Tim and I'm sad for the lessons lost. I find these words going through my head as a common theme today," Last night I had a crazy dream. A wish was granted just for me, it could be for anything. I didn't ask for money or a mansion in Malibu, I simply asked for One more day with you."Here's the point.... It simply doesn't matter what posessions you have or how much money you earn. What matters is the hearts you touch. The memories you make. This is your legacy. It is indeed a GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!!!
So it's October 1st and I actually said, "Rabbit,Rabbit" at 2a.m. before I got out of bed so let's see what good luck comes my way this month. Today Steve celebrates 24 years of sobriety. Tomorrow marks four years since Chuck died. Thursday I have an interview at the hospital and Friday it's Missy's second birthday and Marissa takes her road test. The 22nd is Em and Shawn's first wedding anniversary and the 27th is Tara's 21st birthday. Wow!!!! This month promises many gifts and emotional events. I saw Tara on Friday and she was so sick. It made me worry. Saw Em, Shawn, and Watson yesterday. Our freezer broke so Em and Shawn had to eat the top layer of their wedding cake early. Yesterday I also attended a church group on facilitating small groups. We broke out into small groups and had to share a positive spiritual experience. I chose to share about David's accident because in reality it was a time in which all I had was faith. You could hear a pin drop as I spoke and then they passed around Kleenex. I fully realized how much I've grown because I wasn't always able to speak in front of a group , let alone motivate them. I've received two thank you cards this week from people I simply listened to and offered an empathetic ear. Listening is a lost art. I'm also thinking about the approahing December 9th date and it saddens me on so many levels. I'm sad for the loss of Tim and I'm sad for the lessons lost. I find these words going through my head as a common theme today," Last night I had a crazy dream. A wish was granted just for me, it could be for anything. I didn't ask for money or a mansion in Malibu, I simply asked for One more day with you."Here's the point.... It simply doesn't matter what posessions you have or how much money you earn. What matters is the hearts you touch. The memories you make. This is your legacy. It is indeed a GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!!!
Sunday, September 17, 2006
life in clifton
I finally spoke to Dr. DeMeis on Friday afternoon and she said I'd be scheduled for an interview the week after next. She said an interview for a part time position would takefour hours. For a full time position it's ten hours. I can't imagine what that is like but I guess it's an experience for my life list. Em took me to lunch at Belhurst Friday and that was fantastic. It seems odd to me that my little girl has grown up and is now doing so well that she's taking me to luch. Where have the years gone? I also heard that my aunt Joyce's husband, Uncle John is in the hospital, on life support due to a staff infection. He's only 54 years old. Each year some tragedy jars me back to the realization that life is so short. I must remember to say and do the things I need to each day. It's a good day to live MacDougal!
I finally spoke to Dr. DeMeis on Friday afternoon and she said I'd be scheduled for an interview the week after next. She said an interview for a part time position would takefour hours. For a full time position it's ten hours. I can't imagine what that is like but I guess it's an experience for my life list. Em took me to lunch at Belhurst Friday and that was fantastic. It seems odd to me that my little girl has grown up and is now doing so well that she's taking me to luch. Where have the years gone? I also heard that my aunt Joyce's husband, Uncle John is in the hospital, on life support due to a staff infection. He's only 54 years old. Each year some tragedy jars me back to the realization that life is so short. I must remember to say and do the things I need to each day. It's a good day to live MacDougal!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
life in clifton
As to the 9/11 stuff, the most gripping picture for me was of the people covered in ashes walking side by side. 9/11 was tragic but out of that tragedy came a united front like New Yorkers have never seen. We saw the worst in humans being met with the best.I too think of Tim and as we approach the anniversary of his passing I can feel the tears streaming down my cheeks. I ask myself what this year will bring or even this day.I think in keeping with Ellen I will begin a life list. Today I was somewhat disappointed because I talked to Cal and she said she had already spoken to Dr. DeMeis at Hobart. I called and left a message for Dr. DeMeis and sent one final e-mail. Now I wait for a response but in any event I know I've given it my best shot. I can't wait for Em to be done with RIT and Tara Keuka. It's so exciting to watch them take on the world.I also came up with this brainstorm that one of these times when Steve's travelling Mom and I will get a room by Eastview and have a girls night. We can shop a little rest, do dinner, see a movie. I think that would do her good.It would also give Steve and Riss a break. It's hard for me to balance so many different roles but I am lucky. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
As to the 9/11 stuff, the most gripping picture for me was of the people covered in ashes walking side by side. 9/11 was tragic but out of that tragedy came a united front like New Yorkers have never seen. We saw the worst in humans being met with the best.I too think of Tim and as we approach the anniversary of his passing I can feel the tears streaming down my cheeks. I ask myself what this year will bring or even this day.I think in keeping with Ellen I will begin a life list. Today I was somewhat disappointed because I talked to Cal and she said she had already spoken to Dr. DeMeis at Hobart. I called and left a message for Dr. DeMeis and sent one final e-mail. Now I wait for a response but in any event I know I've given it my best shot. I can't wait for Em to be done with RIT and Tara Keuka. It's so exciting to watch them take on the world.I also came up with this brainstorm that one of these times when Steve's travelling Mom and I will get a room by Eastview and have a girls night. We can shop a little rest, do dinner, see a movie. I think that would do her good.It would also give Steve and Riss a break. It's hard for me to balance so many different roles but I am lucky. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
life in clifton
Well if Tara's posting again so am I. I'm currently pursuing part time work at Hobart. I really want to be part of the educational system in some way. I think this will pan out. We'll see. Today Spencer Tullis came by to take my picture for the paper because I wrote a micro mini blurb about why I read the Finger Lakes Times. It was funny because he called earlier in the day and said he'd give a call before he came over. I got home from Em's and immediately changed out of shorrts and sweatshirt into something else but then changed back to shorts and sweatshirt after afew hours went by with no call. I was getting dinner on the table when he called and said he was about two minutes away. He said he would just be doing a head shot so I stayed in my grubs. Can't wait to see this!!!! He literally pulled in the drive way jumped out of his black Saab convertible took my picture, shook my hand, said thanks for the kind words and left. Pretty funny. Saw both Tara and Em oh and Watson and Em's new furniture today. It was therefore an awesome day. Plenty of life changes for my daughters. I am the luckiest and it's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
Well if Tara's posting again so am I. I'm currently pursuing part time work at Hobart. I really want to be part of the educational system in some way. I think this will pan out. We'll see. Today Spencer Tullis came by to take my picture for the paper because I wrote a micro mini blurb about why I read the Finger Lakes Times. It was funny because he called earlier in the day and said he'd give a call before he came over. I got home from Em's and immediately changed out of shorrts and sweatshirt into something else but then changed back to shorts and sweatshirt after afew hours went by with no call. I was getting dinner on the table when he called and said he was about two minutes away. He said he would just be doing a head shot so I stayed in my grubs. Can't wait to see this!!!! He literally pulled in the drive way jumped out of his black Saab convertible took my picture, shook my hand, said thanks for the kind words and left. Pretty funny. Saw both Tara and Em oh and Watson and Em's new furniture today. It was therefore an awesome day. Plenty of life changes for my daughters. I am the luckiest and it's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
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Well Tara finally made it home!!!! She didn't touch down until 5a.m. Friday. We had another terrorist threat and the weather was bad. But she made it!!!! Thursday I went to Em's with Riss and we played with Liana. That was a blast. It convinced me that I'm going to be an awesome grandma. Em and Shawn picked up Watson yesterday. He is the cutest little pup. Tara and I went up there to see him. We laughed hysterically at everything from mullets to Em's attire( Don't want to be too descroptive at the risk of someone's feelings.). A fantastic day. I spent hours painting and cleaning Marissa's room but it looks good.
It's a good day to live, MacDougal.
Well Tara finally made it home!!!! She didn't touch down until 5a.m. Friday. We had another terrorist threat and the weather was bad. But she made it!!!! Thursday I went to Em's with Riss and we played with Liana. That was a blast. It convinced me that I'm going to be an awesome grandma. Em and Shawn picked up Watson yesterday. He is the cutest little pup. Tara and I went up there to see him. We laughed hysterically at everything from mullets to Em's attire( Don't want to be too descroptive at the risk of someone's feelings.). A fantastic day. I spent hours painting and cleaning Marissa's room but it looks good.
It's a good day to live, MacDougal.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
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I had a fantastic day today. It was Mexican Day of course so I went to lunch with Em and Riss. Then we went to see Watson, Em and Shawn's new dog. He is so cute. I can't stop thinking about him. They pick him up on Friday. He's beautiful. I love him already. He'll make a nice addition to the Ellis family. After that we went to Salvation Armani and got a few things. I should also say this morning I took down the sunflower border in the kitchen and put up fruit. It looks better than it sounds. I feel so much more relaxed and peaceful when I'm not working. Go figure. Tara comes home tomorrow. YEAH!!!!! It's a good day to live MacDougal.
I had a fantastic day today. It was Mexican Day of course so I went to lunch with Em and Riss. Then we went to see Watson, Em and Shawn's new dog. He is so cute. I can't stop thinking about him. They pick him up on Friday. He's beautiful. I love him already. He'll make a nice addition to the Ellis family. After that we went to Salvation Armani and got a few things. I should also say this morning I took down the sunflower border in the kitchen and put up fruit. It looks better than it sounds. I feel so much more relaxed and peaceful when I'm not working. Go figure. Tara comes home tomorrow. YEAH!!!!! It's a good day to live MacDougal.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
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Even I can't believe my day today. Disappointment once again in people but so much gratitude for others. I AM SO VERY BLESSED TO HAVE THE CHILDREN I DO. Between Steve and I we have six children and not a problem with one. God knows both of us have been blessed beyond measure because we have wonderful children in spite of ourselves. I wanted to leave work early today but I had discharged a girl andshe decided to try to jump out a window. I CAN"T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!! I hope I find something different soon. Oh the girl was ok. Not even close to succeeding just grabbing attention. I know that sounds harsh but really some days... Rotary today that was pretty much my highlight. Em & Shawn are getting a puppy. YEAH!!!! Can't wait to see him. It's a schnauzer named Onyx.. IT's A GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!
Even I can't believe my day today. Disappointment once again in people but so much gratitude for others. I AM SO VERY BLESSED TO HAVE THE CHILDREN I DO. Between Steve and I we have six children and not a problem with one. God knows both of us have been blessed beyond measure because we have wonderful children in spite of ourselves. I wanted to leave work early today but I had discharged a girl andshe decided to try to jump out a window. I CAN"T TAKE THIS ANYMORE!!! I hope I find something different soon. Oh the girl was ok. Not even close to succeeding just grabbing attention. I know that sounds harsh but really some days... Rotary today that was pretty much my highlight. Em & Shawn are getting a puppy. YEAH!!!! Can't wait to see him. It's a schnauzer named Onyx.. IT's A GOOD DAY TO LIVE MACDOUGAL!!!!!
Monday, August 07, 2006
life in clifton
Jen sent vacation pictures of Cam today. She is so cute. I spent a fair amount of time organizing Marissa's room. I could clean for about a week and still not be done. Work was okay today but I still feel as if that's not my personal legend. Speaking of which I finshed The Alchemist. I highly recommend it. Looks like Tara's coming home early but only by a day. I WILL HAPPILY TAKE IT!!!! Can't wait to see her. I want to go to Em's Wednesday but she's got a little flea problem so I hope she gets rid of them by then. Got that Embear? Ok rather an uneventful day but it's a good day to live MacDougal!!!
Jen sent vacation pictures of Cam today. She is so cute. I spent a fair amount of time organizing Marissa's room. I could clean for about a week and still not be done. Work was okay today but I still feel as if that's not my personal legend. Speaking of which I finshed The Alchemist. I highly recommend it. Looks like Tara's coming home early but only by a day. I WILL HAPPILY TAKE IT!!!! Can't wait to see her. I want to go to Em's Wednesday but she's got a little flea problem so I hope she gets rid of them by then. Got that Embear? Ok rather an uneventful day but it's a good day to live MacDougal!!!
Sunday, August 06, 2006
life in clifton
Em made it home safely and it sounds like they had fun. Tara found and purchased a Coach bag for me today YEAH!!! Stevie came over again today and that was nice. Such a good boy!!!I think Tara may come home early. I hope so. I also discovered more reasons why I should apply for the Director of The Springs position. Today in church Rev, Spence talked about making a plan and keeping the faith. Kind of like The Alchemist. I'm almost done with that book. Can't wait. MacDougal is finally back from China so It's a Good Day To Live!!!!
Em made it home safely and it sounds like they had fun. Tara found and purchased a Coach bag for me today YEAH!!! Stevie came over again today and that was nice. Such a good boy!!!I think Tara may come home early. I hope so. I also discovered more reasons why I should apply for the Director of The Springs position. Today in church Rev, Spence talked about making a plan and keeping the faith. Kind of like The Alchemist. I'm almost done with that book. Can't wait. MacDougal is finally back from China so It's a Good Day To Live!!!!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
life in clifton
Stevie came over today and it was nice to see him. He was here for lunch and then we hung by the pool for awhile.I put together the book case I got for the office and organized a few things. I went into work for a little while to show Kathy how to pass meds and that ended up being far longer than I expected. Yesterday I watched Em's plane take off and land right on time. I saw it online and that was fascinating. I said, I can't believe she's landing already. I was a little envious. I bet they are having a riot and I can't wait to hear all about it.I am so excited for Tara to come home even though I know she's got to leave for college at least she'll be closer. Em starts work at RIT in a couple of weeks so that'll be a new adventure for her. The Saurkraut festival is going on this weekend. Riss went with some friends and Steve joikingly said "She'll meet the man of her dreams and we'll never see her again ala Em." Real funny that guy. I decided to apply for the position of Director of the Springs at the hospital. I'm just going to keep going after things until God shows me what's right. OK .. It's a good day to live MacDougal. MacDougal by the way is stuck in Hong Kong. She went to China and a typhoon hit and now she waits for safe air travel...
Stevie came over today and it was nice to see him. He was here for lunch and then we hung by the pool for awhile.I put together the book case I got for the office and organized a few things. I went into work for a little while to show Kathy how to pass meds and that ended up being far longer than I expected. Yesterday I watched Em's plane take off and land right on time. I saw it online and that was fascinating. I said, I can't believe she's landing already. I was a little envious. I bet they are having a riot and I can't wait to hear all about it.I am so excited for Tara to come home even though I know she's got to leave for college at least she'll be closer. Em starts work at RIT in a couple of weeks so that'll be a new adventure for her. The Saurkraut festival is going on this weekend. Riss went with some friends and Steve joikingly said "She'll meet the man of her dreams and we'll never see her again ala Em." Real funny that guy. I decided to apply for the position of Director of the Springs at the hospital. I'm just going to keep going after things until God shows me what's right. OK .. It's a good day to live MacDougal. MacDougal by the way is stuck in Hong Kong. She went to China and a typhoon hit and now she waits for safe air travel...
Friday, August 04, 2006
life in clifton
I blogged last night but it showed under comments so ladies and gentlemen please read comments. Silly me!!!!!
I blogged last night but it showed under comments so ladies and gentlemen please read comments. Silly me!!!!!
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
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I find myself thinking there are no coincindences. Tara gave me an awesome book to read called The Alchemist. It's so inspiring. As I struggle to find my "Personal Legend" I am given a study on Cure for the Common Life and The Alchemist as my guides. I took the exam Saturday for my NCAC II and I'm not entirely sure I did well so I guess we shall see. I did enjoy my time with Tara. Yesterday Em met me at the mall and we did some shopping and linch. That was fun too. Today I went to some consignment shops, Rotary and then in the pool. I need to say my entire time off has been peppered with occasions that draw me into work. People using on the unit, one person slitting their wrist in response to my giving a verbal order from NYC for her discharge because she had gotten into a fist fight the night before with someone else on the unit. I worked really hard to get this same woman placed in a halfway house because she had nowhere to live. She didn't like it there so she returned to us and she has the audacity to say after she slit her wrist, "I did this for Brenda" Unbelieveable!!!!! So now why do I want to leave my job? Let me count the ways...... I realized what was important to me last evening when I thought I lost the heart necklace the girls gave me. That it one of my most important treasures. After tearing the house upside down, calling Tara a bazillion times etc.... I found it in the book Tara gave me, " The Weekend". All is well.... It's a good day to live MacDougal.
I find myself thinking there are no coincindences. Tara gave me an awesome book to read called The Alchemist. It's so inspiring. As I struggle to find my "Personal Legend" I am given a study on Cure for the Common Life and The Alchemist as my guides. I took the exam Saturday for my NCAC II and I'm not entirely sure I did well so I guess we shall see. I did enjoy my time with Tara. Yesterday Em met me at the mall and we did some shopping and linch. That was fun too. Today I went to some consignment shops, Rotary and then in the pool. I need to say my entire time off has been peppered with occasions that draw me into work. People using on the unit, one person slitting their wrist in response to my giving a verbal order from NYC for her discharge because she had gotten into a fist fight the night before with someone else on the unit. I worked really hard to get this same woman placed in a halfway house because she had nowhere to live. She didn't like it there so she returned to us and she has the audacity to say after she slit her wrist, "I did this for Brenda" Unbelieveable!!!!! So now why do I want to leave my job? Let me count the ways...... I realized what was important to me last evening when I thought I lost the heart necklace the girls gave me. That it one of my most important treasures. After tearing the house upside down, calling Tara a bazillion times etc.... I found it in the book Tara gave me, " The Weekend". All is well.... It's a good day to live MacDougal.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
life in clifton
Well I'm back from the big city with plenty to tell so I'm gonna do it in small doses so I don't lose ya. First my flight was delayed in Rochester for five hours. That made us miss our show but I heard so many stories of people saving for trips that they were going to miss that I thought my situation isn't all that bad. I met a lady named Mae while I was waiting and we shared a cab into the city. She had just finished getting radiation for cancer this past winter. So that was a gift(meeting her I mean). When I got off the plane and saw Tara I was literally awestruck. She looked so glamourous. Now how can I put this? All weekend long I found myself thinking she is really worldly now. She reminds me of what I know of Tim's transformation when he left home and hit the Big Apple. Every experience to him was a thrilling adventure. It just seemed like Tara was literally following in his footsteps. I absolutely felt his presence. Tara knows what she wants and she has the confidence to get it. It was fine by me that we missed Ave Q. It was a priceless time just seeing Tara. I'm not sure how I did on my test but it definitely wasn't easy. We'll see. Oh Friday we finally ate at 11:30 at the Japanese place where you take your shoes off and cook your food. The one disturbing thing was that they only had chopsticks and I ate my tossed salad with them. It was a fun experience. Nice because if I had the option I'd eat with a fork. I could almost hear Tim say, " No, you gotta eat with chopsticks to experience it fully. By Saturday I was relaxed and absolutely enjoyed the day. Ok I'm trying to get caught up on some stuff so I'll write later. It is absolutely a Good Day To Live, MacDougal!!!!!
Well I'm back from the big city with plenty to tell so I'm gonna do it in small doses so I don't lose ya. First my flight was delayed in Rochester for five hours. That made us miss our show but I heard so many stories of people saving for trips that they were going to miss that I thought my situation isn't all that bad. I met a lady named Mae while I was waiting and we shared a cab into the city. She had just finished getting radiation for cancer this past winter. So that was a gift(meeting her I mean). When I got off the plane and saw Tara I was literally awestruck. She looked so glamourous. Now how can I put this? All weekend long I found myself thinking she is really worldly now. She reminds me of what I know of Tim's transformation when he left home and hit the Big Apple. Every experience to him was a thrilling adventure. It just seemed like Tara was literally following in his footsteps. I absolutely felt his presence. Tara knows what she wants and she has the confidence to get it. It was fine by me that we missed Ave Q. It was a priceless time just seeing Tara. I'm not sure how I did on my test but it definitely wasn't easy. We'll see. Oh Friday we finally ate at 11:30 at the Japanese place where you take your shoes off and cook your food. The one disturbing thing was that they only had chopsticks and I ate my tossed salad with them. It was a fun experience. Nice because if I had the option I'd eat with a fork. I could almost hear Tim say, " No, you gotta eat with chopsticks to experience it fully. By Saturday I was relaxed and absolutely enjoyed the day. Ok I'm trying to get caught up on some stuff so I'll write later. It is absolutely a Good Day To Live, MacDougal!!!!!
Thursday, July 27, 2006
life in clifton
I had my haircut and colored today and that was fun hanging with Kris. This morning I had to kick a few people out for using on the unit today and then I got in line behind one of them buying beer tonight. A little uncomfortable! Last nights book reading was great. It really hit home. All about taking time from rushing to be still. This weekend I go to NYC and I am off the chain with excitement. Last night at the dinner table Riss said, " You have the best sense of humor" I said thanks Riss and she said Em doesn't think you do but I told her you were funny. Isn't it interesting how people see us so differently. Please send prayers for my test on Saturday. It's a good day to live!!!!!
I had my haircut and colored today and that was fun hanging with Kris. This morning I had to kick a few people out for using on the unit today and then I got in line behind one of them buying beer tonight. A little uncomfortable! Last nights book reading was great. It really hit home. All about taking time from rushing to be still. This weekend I go to NYC and I am off the chain with excitement. Last night at the dinner table Riss said, " You have the best sense of humor" I said thanks Riss and she said Em doesn't think you do but I told her you were funny. Isn't it interesting how people see us so differently. Please send prayers for my test on Saturday. It's a good day to live!!!!!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
life in clifton
well missy is laying on my lap so i guess it will be all little letters tonight. i have one arm cradling her. tara and i decided we'd go see avenue q. i just realized this is the first time in my life i've flown alone. i guess i'm a big girl now. i'm getting excited and nervous at the same time. i had rotary today and that was fun. still no word on new jobs. i guess i just have to be patient but it's so hard when i feel so stagnate where i am now. joe shared a story today about how his son got engaged over the weekend. he gave his girlfriend this jewelry box that was engraved but the engraving was wrong so when she opened it and showed it to him he flipped a cog and said, " damn those guys. i hope they got this right. so she opens up a smaller jewelry box that's engraved with what will be her new last name. it had a ten thousand dollar diamond inside and he asked her to marry him. pretty nice huh? ok now get this story .joe has a rosary he takes on vacation with him and this year he forgot it. they vacation at a cabin in the middle of nowhere so day one he goes on the dock to go fishing and there's a guy sitting there making guess what rosarys. joe traded a mess of fish for one. powerful story right? joe said the guy told him he'd been making them for months and this was the first one he sold. i guess the guy loved fish but said he didn't have the patience to fish so he was happy. you see it's a good day to live macdougal.
well missy is laying on my lap so i guess it will be all little letters tonight. i have one arm cradling her. tara and i decided we'd go see avenue q. i just realized this is the first time in my life i've flown alone. i guess i'm a big girl now. i'm getting excited and nervous at the same time. i had rotary today and that was fun. still no word on new jobs. i guess i just have to be patient but it's so hard when i feel so stagnate where i am now. joe shared a story today about how his son got engaged over the weekend. he gave his girlfriend this jewelry box that was engraved but the engraving was wrong so when she opened it and showed it to him he flipped a cog and said, " damn those guys. i hope they got this right. so she opens up a smaller jewelry box that's engraved with what will be her new last name. it had a ten thousand dollar diamond inside and he asked her to marry him. pretty nice huh? ok now get this story .joe has a rosary he takes on vacation with him and this year he forgot it. they vacation at a cabin in the middle of nowhere so day one he goes on the dock to go fishing and there's a guy sitting there making guess what rosarys. joe traded a mess of fish for one. powerful story right? joe said the guy told him he'd been making them for months and this was the first one he sold. i guess the guy loved fish but said he didn't have the patience to fish so he was happy. you see it's a good day to live macdougal.
Monday, July 24, 2006
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For some reason I thought Tara and Dave would get engaged this weekend. All in due time if it's meant to be I spose... I took Riss to the camera shop today and then she drove home from Waterloo. not too shabby. It was a bear of a day at work. Nothing but meetings and I HATE DAYS LIKE THAT!!!!! What a waste. Micromanagement doesn't suit me. Em is really feeling sick and I want to go up and help take care of her but I realize she has a husband now and that's not my role anymore. So I pray that she'll be well soon and that she feels my presence. After reading Tara's blog I pray she feels my hug in NYC. I can't wait to see her this weekend and I know I'll cry when I see her and I know I'll cry when she says good bye. My babies... growing up, entering the world, making their mark and leaving indelible footprints upon my heart. My life's one great success.... It truly is a good day to live MacDougal.
For some reason I thought Tara and Dave would get engaged this weekend. All in due time if it's meant to be I spose... I took Riss to the camera shop today and then she drove home from Waterloo. not too shabby. It was a bear of a day at work. Nothing but meetings and I HATE DAYS LIKE THAT!!!!! What a waste. Micromanagement doesn't suit me. Em is really feeling sick and I want to go up and help take care of her but I realize she has a husband now and that's not my role anymore. So I pray that she'll be well soon and that she feels my presence. After reading Tara's blog I pray she feels my hug in NYC. I can't wait to see her this weekend and I know I'll cry when I see her and I know I'll cry when she says good bye. My babies... growing up, entering the world, making their mark and leaving indelible footprints upon my heart. My life's one great success.... It truly is a good day to live MacDougal.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
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It was a rainy day today which was kinda nice because it gave me an excuse to clean and study. God Knows if the sun was out I'd do neither. Riss and I had a nice talk today. I'm starting to see more similarities than differences between us and that's nice.Dave arrived safely in NYC and it sounds like he and Tara are having fun. Em called this morning and said she had a sore throat. Poor baby! I told her to eat chicken noodle soup and popsicles. Sounded like she was just lying low as well. I'm not going to drone on about nothing so I'll leave with.... It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!!!
It was a rainy day today which was kinda nice because it gave me an excuse to clean and study. God Knows if the sun was out I'd do neither. Riss and I had a nice talk today. I'm starting to see more similarities than differences between us and that's nice.Dave arrived safely in NYC and it sounds like he and Tara are having fun. Em called this morning and said she had a sore throat. Poor baby! I told her to eat chicken noodle soup and popsicles. Sounded like she was just lying low as well. I'm not going to drone on about nothing so I'll leave with.... It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!!!
Friday, July 21, 2006
life in clifton
I took today off and it felt fantastic! I went grocery shopping and then did some cleaning. Nothing too exciting. When I was at the store I loaded up on magazines and spent a good part of the day reading. I also dropped my immunization record off at Dr. Power's office to be completed for Empire and they called me saying they have no record of me having an MMR so I have to go to the lab on Tuesday and have a blood draw. Next week is filling up fast with activity. I hope I hear something about a job interview soon. I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner for Steve tonight and enjoying some alone time while mom is with Scot. It can be tough on a relationship to have a 71 year old around. I know that sounds horrible but it is a stressor. Ok enough said. It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
I took today off and it felt fantastic! I went grocery shopping and then did some cleaning. Nothing too exciting. When I was at the store I loaded up on magazines and spent a good part of the day reading. I also dropped my immunization record off at Dr. Power's office to be completed for Empire and they called me saying they have no record of me having an MMR so I have to go to the lab on Tuesday and have a blood draw. Next week is filling up fast with activity. I hope I hear something about a job interview soon. I'm looking forward to cooking a nice dinner for Steve tonight and enjoying some alone time while mom is with Scot. It can be tough on a relationship to have a 71 year old around. I know that sounds horrible but it is a stressor. Ok enough said. It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
Thursday, July 20, 2006
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Today was my last day with Brenda Rider so I took her to lunch at the Clifton Country club. They were having a tournament so they were really serving lunch but the head guy said we could stay and have buffet. It was fantastic. Sandwich stuff and mac salad but it was just the two of us. We talked, laughed and just generally had a good time. I will miss her but hopefully I'll be soon to follow. Em did well on her interview at RIT today so it's hers if she wants it and it pays better than what she thought too. Tara has a busy day today. She's going to see a play with a teacher. Then tomorrow Dave flys down very early. It's thundering now so I hope all travel is a go with no delays for tomorrow. I'm really getting excited for next week. I CAN FINALLY SAY NEXT WEEK. Before I know it I will be there and back. It's a good day to Live MacDougal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today was my last day with Brenda Rider so I took her to lunch at the Clifton Country club. They were having a tournament so they were really serving lunch but the head guy said we could stay and have buffet. It was fantastic. Sandwich stuff and mac salad but it was just the two of us. We talked, laughed and just generally had a good time. I will miss her but hopefully I'll be soon to follow. Em did well on her interview at RIT today so it's hers if she wants it and it pays better than what she thought too. Tara has a busy day today. She's going to see a play with a teacher. Then tomorrow Dave flys down very early. It's thundering now so I hope all travel is a go with no delays for tomorrow. I'm really getting excited for next week. I CAN FINALLY SAY NEXT WEEK. Before I know it I will be there and back. It's a good day to Live MacDougal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
life in clifton
It was a nice day today. I took it off from work and did some yard work, went to Mexican day with Em & Riss, laughed alot and just generally enjoyed the sunshine. John , the CEO of the hospital sent me a couple of e-mails regarding my resume so that was nice. I went to the Book reading at church. Always nice to meet new people and get to know them. Em's interview at RIT is tomorrow so let's keep her in prayer. I think Tara and Dave will have a riot this weekend. Can't wait to hear all about it. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
It was a nice day today. I took it off from work and did some yard work, went to Mexican day with Em & Riss, laughed alot and just generally enjoyed the sunshine. John , the CEO of the hospital sent me a couple of e-mails regarding my resume so that was nice. I went to the Book reading at church. Always nice to meet new people and get to know them. Em's interview at RIT is tomorrow so let's keep her in prayer. I think Tara and Dave will have a riot this weekend. Can't wait to hear all about it. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
life in clifton
Wow!!!!! I must proof my blogs. Tara was having problems with long distance banKing. How red is my face???? It's still a good day to live MacDougal!!!!!
Wow!!!!! I must proof my blogs. Tara was having problems with long distance banKing. How red is my face???? It's still a good day to live MacDougal!!!!!
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
life in clifton
So I had lunch with Barb Oliver and she doesn't sound too convincing about me as Director of Behavioral Health. She said she tought they were looking for a medical person. All I can do is see. Perhaps I was destined for Hobart. I'm placing it in God's hands. Pretty uneventful day. I also e-mailed Rev. Spence about how much is lacking for the new sound system at church. I'd love to make a big contribution towards that. Tara is struggling with long distance banging and I know how frustrating that is. Last year when we were in NYC my card that I knew had plenty of funds wasn't working at the hotel. Phone calls were made left and right and finally due to an act of God it worked. It's just so frustrating cuz you're so far away from being able to do anything about it. We really have become a society dependent upon computers and technology. Em had a fantastic opportunity dropped in her lap today to work with people at RIT that will be in a position to help her career. No coincidence .. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
So I had lunch with Barb Oliver and she doesn't sound too convincing about me as Director of Behavioral Health. She said she tought they were looking for a medical person. All I can do is see. Perhaps I was destined for Hobart. I'm placing it in God's hands. Pretty uneventful day. I also e-mailed Rev. Spence about how much is lacking for the new sound system at church. I'd love to make a big contribution towards that. Tara is struggling with long distance banging and I know how frustrating that is. Last year when we were in NYC my card that I knew had plenty of funds wasn't working at the hotel. Phone calls were made left and right and finally due to an act of God it worked. It's just so frustrating cuz you're so far away from being able to do anything about it. We really have become a society dependent upon computers and technology. Em had a fantastic opportunity dropped in her lap today to work with people at RIT that will be in a position to help her career. No coincidence .. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
Monday, July 17, 2006
life in clifton
It was unbelieveably hot today. I think that I will jump in the pool when I get home. I made it through a Monday at work without feeling too frazzled. The kid that I spoke to on Friday was admitted and managed to stay for 2 whole hours. Oh well we tried. I am getting so excited about New York. Sounds like Tara has at least a plan of where we'll eat. I've been studying like a mad woman for the exam. My weakness seems to be counseling theory. Ok It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
It was unbelieveably hot today. I think that I will jump in the pool when I get home. I made it through a Monday at work without feeling too frazzled. The kid that I spoke to on Friday was admitted and managed to stay for 2 whole hours. Oh well we tried. I am getting so excited about New York. Sounds like Tara has at least a plan of where we'll eat. I've been studying like a mad woman for the exam. My weakness seems to be counseling theory. Ok It's a good day to live MacDougal!!!!
Sunday, July 16, 2006
life in clifton
I went for my walk this morning and it's HOTTER THAN BLAZES!!!!! Even at 7a.m.. Then I went to church and grocery shopping. I made Greens and Beans for lunch. It was great. Then get this, I went by the pool for 3 hours. I should say I went in the pool. I watched Em's wedding video and cried in the very spots I cried in on the day she got married. I still marvel at Tara's speach.It was also nice to see Tim singing. As I look at that tape he doesn't look sick at all. I've said for most of my life that it's important to live each day and that's a shining example. As Tim would say, " Never say I shoulda. I really want a copy of Shoes. Someday it will be found. Tara, you should ask Ray to do a search again. Maybe you could even help him. Ok so my signature line is not going over so great. Instead of Let's be careful out there how's, " It's a good day to live, MacDougal........
I went for my walk this morning and it's HOTTER THAN BLAZES!!!!! Even at 7a.m.. Then I went to church and grocery shopping. I made Greens and Beans for lunch. It was great. Then get this, I went by the pool for 3 hours. I should say I went in the pool. I watched Em's wedding video and cried in the very spots I cried in on the day she got married. I still marvel at Tara's speach.It was also nice to see Tim singing. As I look at that tape he doesn't look sick at all. I've said for most of my life that it's important to live each day and that's a shining example. As Tim would say, " Never say I shoulda. I really want a copy of Shoes. Someday it will be found. Tara, you should ask Ray to do a search again. Maybe you could even help him. Ok so my signature line is not going over so great. Instead of Let's be careful out there how's, " It's a good day to live, MacDougal........
Saturday, July 15, 2006
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Ok so I missed a blog day! I really needed to chill. I became so stressed with work on Thursday that I decided to put in for some time off (I have 3 months leave time accumulated) and take Friday off. I HAVE GOT TO GET OUT OF THAT PLACE!!!!!!! I'm hearing the hospital is conducting a nationwide search so we'll see what happens with that. Hobart is also still a possibility. There's no doubt in my mind that something will present itself. As Em wrote in her blog we went shopping today. It was a nice day to spend just doing absolutely nothing. This is Tara's last weekend with no guests in NYC so she better be navigating the city for us.Sounds like she's found some great places to eat. I take my NCAC II test on the 29th so that's what takes me to her.Here's my story of the day: I tried calling into work today but for some reason the phones were down so I went in to tell them I'd be off. As I get there there's this guy screaming profanitys at Joe. I am far from professionally dressed but I ask the guy to step into my office. He comes in and says if I can't get in here today I'm never coming in. I tell him our beds are full and we have a wait list of 25. I then said if you're not coming in then go home and drink and drink and drink.... He stops dead in his tracks and says how can you say that? I said if you don't keep drinking you are going to experience extreme discomfort and you will also sooner or later get some consequences and that WILL bring you back. He says OK then I'll be on the list. The team was in hysterics because this guy was being so loud and obnoxious and they had been working with him since 6 a.m. with no results. I guess that brings us to why I had to go into work because the phone lines were down. No coincidences. Let's be careful out there!!!!
Ok so I missed a blog day! I really needed to chill. I became so stressed with work on Thursday that I decided to put in for some time off (I have 3 months leave time accumulated) and take Friday off. I HAVE GOT TO GET OUT OF THAT PLACE!!!!!!! I'm hearing the hospital is conducting a nationwide search so we'll see what happens with that. Hobart is also still a possibility. There's no doubt in my mind that something will present itself. As Em wrote in her blog we went shopping today. It was a nice day to spend just doing absolutely nothing. This is Tara's last weekend with no guests in NYC so she better be navigating the city for us.Sounds like she's found some great places to eat. I take my NCAC II test on the 29th so that's what takes me to her.Here's my story of the day: I tried calling into work today but for some reason the phones were down so I went in to tell them I'd be off. As I get there there's this guy screaming profanitys at Joe. I am far from professionally dressed but I ask the guy to step into my office. He comes in and says if I can't get in here today I'm never coming in. I tell him our beds are full and we have a wait list of 25. I then said if you're not coming in then go home and drink and drink and drink.... He stops dead in his tracks and says how can you say that? I said if you don't keep drinking you are going to experience extreme discomfort and you will also sooner or later get some consequences and that WILL bring you back. He says OK then I'll be on the list. The team was in hysterics because this guy was being so loud and obnoxious and they had been working with him since 6 a.m. with no results. I guess that brings us to why I had to go into work because the phone lines were down. No coincidences. Let's be careful out there!!!!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
life in clifton
I sent my resume to the hospital yesterday. I went to lunch ( Mexican Day) with Em and Riss and that was fun. After lunch we went to Em's to check out her new room set up. Very nice. And let's definitely pray about the wedding video. Tim, Come on now give us this. We really want your beautiful voice captured on tape. Also while you're at it can you gift us with a copy of SHOES? It's ironic that the purpose for these blogs was Tara and then she's the one who can't access them. I went to the first weeks study of Cure for the Common Life at church tonight and it was great. There's about 10 women there and it goes for 3 weeks so I hope to get to know a few more people. I'll write later. Let's be careful out there.
I sent my resume to the hospital yesterday. I went to lunch ( Mexican Day) with Em and Riss and that was fun. After lunch we went to Em's to check out her new room set up. Very nice. And let's definitely pray about the wedding video. Tim, Come on now give us this. We really want your beautiful voice captured on tape. Also while you're at it can you gift us with a copy of SHOES? It's ironic that the purpose for these blogs was Tara and then she's the one who can't access them. I went to the first weeks study of Cure for the Common Life at church tonight and it was great. There's about 10 women there and it goes for 3 weeks so I hope to get to know a few more people. I'll write later. Let's be careful out there.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
life in cliftonOK first Tara got her Nintendo, Thank God!!. Today I walked using Marissa's ipod and what a difference. I was really energized. On my walk I went by the hospital and thought , If I could have any job it would be Joe Wilson's as Director of Behavioral Health. Immediately I thought , He's not going anywhere but when I got to work I went to the hospital's website and ;looked at job openings. There it was in black and white; Director of Behavioral Health. I couldn't even believe it. My energy level and enthusiasm increased and I smiled at work for the first time in several days. If nothing else it served as a reminder to me that God answers all prayers. It may not be the answer we're searching for but He hears. We'll see what His answer is. I went to the library and took out 6 books on cover letters/ resumes after work. I'm putting a great deal of effort into this. Tara is getting more and more frustrated without a computer. Tomorrow she should have Em's package with some antivirus software so that should help. Casey and Jenn sent us pictures of Cam and she is so cute. She's walking now and wanting to look at books. It made my day to see her pictures. Let's Be Careful Out There!!!!!!
Monday, July 10, 2006
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Oh My God today was insane at work. Here's the most frustrating part: I had to go to a Manager's meeting so I silenced my phone and I kept looking at it to see I was missing calls from all three of my children. I wanted to jump through the phone to get to them. When I got back to the office I was once again literally running everywhere. I was supposed to be visited by Holly to review Amy's program tomorrow but Amy left a message saying she was out on medical leave til at least Thursday. Great so I go to get her charts to review and find less than 10. I told Bill and Marty I was going to postpone with Holley and Holley was gracious enough to reschedule. I finally got to talk to the girls. I actually got to see Em who was kind enough to take Riss driving and to her Eye appointment. She was a lifesaver. Riss cuddled up with me tonight and we had an awesome dinner in which Steve told us all about his first day on the new job. He's at work until 5 now so that's an adjustment for him.Riss is making me an ipod section for my walks. Can't wait to listen to it. Sometimes she really surprises me. Oh and get this Tara got her boots that I sent the day after her Nintendo but no Nintendo yet. THAT THING IS CURSED. I SWEAR!!!!! OK tomorrow is Rotary and I'm looking forward to it. I'll tell ya all about it. Stay safe!!!!!! Let's be careful out there!!!
Oh My God today was insane at work. Here's the most frustrating part: I had to go to a Manager's meeting so I silenced my phone and I kept looking at it to see I was missing calls from all three of my children. I wanted to jump through the phone to get to them. When I got back to the office I was once again literally running everywhere. I was supposed to be visited by Holly to review Amy's program tomorrow but Amy left a message saying she was out on medical leave til at least Thursday. Great so I go to get her charts to review and find less than 10. I told Bill and Marty I was going to postpone with Holley and Holley was gracious enough to reschedule. I finally got to talk to the girls. I actually got to see Em who was kind enough to take Riss driving and to her Eye appointment. She was a lifesaver. Riss cuddled up with me tonight and we had an awesome dinner in which Steve told us all about his first day on the new job. He's at work until 5 now so that's an adjustment for him.Riss is making me an ipod section for my walks. Can't wait to listen to it. Sometimes she really surprises me. Oh and get this Tara got her boots that I sent the day after her Nintendo but no Nintendo yet. THAT THING IS CURSED. I SWEAR!!!!! OK tomorrow is Rotary and I'm looking forward to it. I'll tell ya all about it. Stay safe!!!!!! Let's be careful out there!!!
Sunday, July 09, 2006
life in clifton
OK before you all think I lost five pounds overnight(Em) let me clarify. Apparently the scales were wrong when I had weighed myself and I had gained 5. I haven't lost orgained. This morning I was awakened at 4 by my cell phone ringing and there being problems at work. I'm getting soooooooo...... stressed by what's happening there but I feel as if everything's coming to a cresendo and something's gotta give. I'm just trying to hang on. I'm starting a study of the book Cure for a common life by Max Lucado. It's being done on Wednesday nights at church. I'm sure that'll give me a little insight. Today Em, mom & I went to Rachael's shower and it was actually pretty nice. I generally dread going to those events but it was nice to see how Denise had changed and nice to spend time with Em. When I got home Steve had mowed the yard and had Riss drive into work. Both very nice surprises. Tomorrow is his first day on the new job. I'm excited for him. It'll be nice for him to be involved in education. Tara is so frustrated about her computer situation. I swear she would throw it off the promenade if she could. Sge was seeing Ray and Rhoda Renee today so I'm sure that will lift her spirits. Ok. I need to get going. Happy trails.......
OK before you all think I lost five pounds overnight(Em) let me clarify. Apparently the scales were wrong when I had weighed myself and I had gained 5. I haven't lost orgained. This morning I was awakened at 4 by my cell phone ringing and there being problems at work. I'm getting soooooooo...... stressed by what's happening there but I feel as if everything's coming to a cresendo and something's gotta give. I'm just trying to hang on. I'm starting a study of the book Cure for a common life by Max Lucado. It's being done on Wednesday nights at church. I'm sure that'll give me a little insight. Today Em, mom & I went to Rachael's shower and it was actually pretty nice. I generally dread going to those events but it was nice to see how Denise had changed and nice to spend time with Em. When I got home Steve had mowed the yard and had Riss drive into work. Both very nice surprises. Tomorrow is his first day on the new job. I'm excited for him. It'll be nice for him to be involved in education. Tara is so frustrated about her computer situation. I swear she would throw it off the promenade if she could. Sge was seeing Ray and Rhoda Renee today so I'm sure that will lift her spirits. Ok. I need to get going. Happy trails.......
Saturday, July 08, 2006
life in clifton
So I step on the scales this morning and it was five pounds less than last night. YEAH!!!! Iwent for a walk with Steve this morning, mailed out Tara's package and then ran into town to get a few things. Riss had to be to work at 11 and I was late getting her there. I felt terrible. So when I got home I was rushing around like a maniac muttering under my breath how I'm sick of all the responsibility when I went running in from the garage, slipped and fell and swung the door open knocking a picture to the floor and shattering the glass. I stopped regained my composure and said God is telling me to stop this and spent the rest of the day in the pool. All was fantastic until I got stung by a bee and my hand swelled to the size of Texas. Marissa got home at 1:30 this morning and I'm struggling with that. I think she's way too young to be out that late and Em and Tarta never got to be out past midnight so it goes against my values. I try to be understanding yet at the same time I am the mom. I know Riss is responsible I just would never forgive myself if something happened to her. Sometimes when we are Just Us and talking she makes me laugh, she makes me think and I generally feel like ok we got it but at other times there seems to be a great divide between us. I know it was like that with Em and Tara too and now we get along fantastic so time will tell. Steve said at the dinner table tonight, " You know I think you have the best relationship with your twenty somethings.... I mean I don't know of anyone who has a closer relationship with their children. " That felt nice to hear. Mom said it's because we've been through alot together but I think it's deeper than that. I adore the human beings my children have turned out to be. I genuinely admire them and it has nothing to do with the fact that they are my children. They are neat, compassionate, funny and beautiful.. I am so blessed and I will never take that for granted. I am rich beyond measure.
So I step on the scales this morning and it was five pounds less than last night. YEAH!!!! Iwent for a walk with Steve this morning, mailed out Tara's package and then ran into town to get a few things. Riss had to be to work at 11 and I was late getting her there. I felt terrible. So when I got home I was rushing around like a maniac muttering under my breath how I'm sick of all the responsibility when I went running in from the garage, slipped and fell and swung the door open knocking a picture to the floor and shattering the glass. I stopped regained my composure and said God is telling me to stop this and spent the rest of the day in the pool. All was fantastic until I got stung by a bee and my hand swelled to the size of Texas. Marissa got home at 1:30 this morning and I'm struggling with that. I think she's way too young to be out that late and Em and Tarta never got to be out past midnight so it goes against my values. I try to be understanding yet at the same time I am the mom. I know Riss is responsible I just would never forgive myself if something happened to her. Sometimes when we are Just Us and talking she makes me laugh, she makes me think and I generally feel like ok we got it but at other times there seems to be a great divide between us. I know it was like that with Em and Tara too and now we get along fantastic so time will tell. Steve said at the dinner table tonight, " You know I think you have the best relationship with your twenty somethings.... I mean I don't know of anyone who has a closer relationship with their children. " That felt nice to hear. Mom said it's because we've been through alot together but I think it's deeper than that. I adore the human beings my children have turned out to be. I genuinely admire them and it has nothing to do with the fact that they are my children. They are neat, compassionate, funny and beautiful.. I am so blessed and I will never take that for granted. I am rich beyond measure.
Friday, July 07, 2006
life in clifton
I took mom to the doctor's today and decided to blow off the rest of the day of work. When I got home I hung out by the pool. I also started to complete my Empire application. I've got to write two essays so the fun begins already but I love exercising my brain. I walked again this morning five miles 3/3 days. Yeah for me. Riss drove to East Rochester in driver's ed. Yeah for her. Tara shopped all day and soaked up NYC. Yeah for her. Ok gotta go for now.
I took mom to the doctor's today and decided to blow off the rest of the day of work. When I got home I hung out by the pool. I also started to complete my Empire application. I've got to write two essays so the fun begins already but I love exercising my brain. I walked again this morning five miles 3/3 days. Yeah for me. Riss drove to East Rochester in driver's ed. Yeah for her. Tara shopped all day and soaked up NYC. Yeah for her. Ok gotta go for now.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
life in clifton
Today I got up and walked another five miles before going to work. Then when I got to work my team told me that the 15 year olds Pat had hired to purge our files goofed up. They were supposed to get rid of client charts that were 1999 and older and my team found 2006 charts in the to be shredded file. OOOOps! I went to lunch with Em today and laughed my hiney off. I decided I would print out all the blogs and make a book so that's a project. Steve is enjoying his last few days off prior to the start of his new job. Lucky duck. Tara seems to be taking on NYC and is even talking about taking Belly dancing classes. She saw a rat at the subway today .OH MY GAWD!!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I will die if I see one. Riss is doing better and better at driving. Ok I've got to get going cuz Big Brother's on and it's the thing to do if your life is on back order.
Today I got up and walked another five miles before going to work. Then when I got to work my team told me that the 15 year olds Pat had hired to purge our files goofed up. They were supposed to get rid of client charts that were 1999 and older and my team found 2006 charts in the to be shredded file. OOOOps! I went to lunch with Em today and laughed my hiney off. I decided I would print out all the blogs and make a book so that's a project. Steve is enjoying his last few days off prior to the start of his new job. Lucky duck. Tara seems to be taking on NYC and is even talking about taking Belly dancing classes. She saw a rat at the subway today .OH MY GAWD!!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I will die if I see one. Riss is doing better and better at driving. Ok I've got to get going cuz Big Brother's on and it's the thing to do if your life is on back order.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
life in clifton
I am absolutely exhausted today. Most of the day I was literally running. One crisis after another.The end of my guy brought a gentleman looking for help who was 57 years old. He said he was married eight times and I almost saluted him. Ha! Ha! Tara got her package YEAH!!!! She said she had a rough day. She was on her way to the cruise. I think she'll sleep good tonight! I'm making a commitment to have lunch with Em tomorrow. I've got to stop the insanity. Ok I'm going to get going so that I can't just rest.
I am absolutely exhausted today. Most of the day I was literally running. One crisis after another.The end of my guy brought a gentleman looking for help who was 57 years old. He said he was married eight times and I almost saluted him. Ha! Ha! Tara got her package YEAH!!!! She said she had a rough day. She was on her way to the cruise. I think she'll sleep good tonight! I'm making a commitment to have lunch with Em tomorrow. I've got to stop the insanity. Ok I'm going to get going so that I can't just rest.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
life in clifton
I finally have something powerful to share in my blog. I went to Wegman's this morning and debated on getting a Santa Fe Dip and decided against it. I went to Tops and met Steve to finish shopping and Em called and said she was coming down. I decided to go back and get the dip after tanning. I got to the Tan place and said Naw I'm just stopping at Wegman's and going home. I grabbed the dip and this lady comes up to me and says, " Did you used to work at the hospital? And your mother work at Cable? I said yes. She said I saw you here earlier and wanted to talk to you but I was too afraid. I told myself if I saw you again ( she's a Wegmans employee) I'd make myself talk to you and here you are." At this point I was thinking, "How do I know her and where is she going with this." She went on to say 11 years ago my daughter committed suicide and I was in the Psych Unit. You were the one person who gave me hope. You're the reason I'm here today. You even came in on your day off and you said something I practice to this day. You said your daughter is still with you. Look each day for a sign that she's here.WOW!!!! That was a powerful story and I can't tell you how it moved me. I've always said each life touches another in ways we'll never know. 11 years ago I had left my job at the county, had gone through a horrendous Family Court battle with Terry and was in an abusive marriage. I felt relative purposeless. Yet God used me to reach that women. Amazing. I told her how powerful her words were to me and said to never again be afraid to say something to someone because she was very worthwhile and had a story worth sharing.
I finally have something powerful to share in my blog. I went to Wegman's this morning and debated on getting a Santa Fe Dip and decided against it. I went to Tops and met Steve to finish shopping and Em called and said she was coming down. I decided to go back and get the dip after tanning. I got to the Tan place and said Naw I'm just stopping at Wegman's and going home. I grabbed the dip and this lady comes up to me and says, " Did you used to work at the hospital? And your mother work at Cable? I said yes. She said I saw you here earlier and wanted to talk to you but I was too afraid. I told myself if I saw you again ( she's a Wegmans employee) I'd make myself talk to you and here you are." At this point I was thinking, "How do I know her and where is she going with this." She went on to say 11 years ago my daughter committed suicide and I was in the Psych Unit. You were the one person who gave me hope. You're the reason I'm here today. You even came in on your day off and you said something I practice to this day. You said your daughter is still with you. Look each day for a sign that she's here.WOW!!!! That was a powerful story and I can't tell you how it moved me. I've always said each life touches another in ways we'll never know. 11 years ago I had left my job at the county, had gone through a horrendous Family Court battle with Terry and was in an abusive marriage. I felt relative purposeless. Yet God used me to reach that women. Amazing. I told her how powerful her words were to me and said to never again be afraid to say something to someone because she was very worthwhile and had a story worth sharing.
Monday, July 03, 2006
life in clifton
Today was a gorgeous day and I found myself at work. Ugh!!!! I wanted to go see Devil wears Prada with Riss but she went with Audrey and her parents. Such is life. Tara is soaking up NYC like a sponge now. . Em spent the day on the boat with the men in her life (her husband and father). Brenda Rider decided to take the job in Newark so I'll be looking for a new counselor. Had a talk with Marty today in an effort to get some things off my chest. We'll see where life takes me........ Oh Tara's Nintendo finally arrived. OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!!
Today was a gorgeous day and I found myself at work. Ugh!!!! I wanted to go see Devil wears Prada with Riss but she went with Audrey and her parents. Such is life. Tara is soaking up NYC like a sponge now. . Em spent the day on the boat with the men in her life (her husband and father). Brenda Rider decided to take the job in Newark so I'll be looking for a new counselor. Had a talk with Marty today in an effort to get some things off my chest. We'll see where life takes me........ Oh Tara's Nintendo finally arrived. OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!!
Sunday, July 02, 2006
life in clifton
I have been thinking about Tara so much today and then Em called and said she was trying to call her but no answer. I hoped she was doing something fun and as it turns out she was. Good news. Em and I both said yesterday that when we see her again we're going to be so skinny she doesn't even recognize us. Thank you God for watching over my little girls. ( they will always be my little girls).
I have been thinking about Tara so much today and then Em called and said she was trying to call her but no answer. I hoped she was doing something fun and as it turns out she was. Good news. Em and I both said yesterday that when we see her again we're going to be so skinny she doesn't even recognize us. Thank you God for watching over my little girls. ( they will always be my little girls).
life in clifton
I heard from Tara. Actually I got her call in church right before I went up for communion and to pray at the rail. I left and called her back as I was walking to my car. She asked me to pray for her and of course I already had. I think it'll take her a little bit of time to adjust. She'll be teaching in Manhattan. I put together a Care package for her and that felt good. I hope she gets aclimated. Em fell in her pool today with her clothes on. Silly girl. Sorry I missed it.
I heard from Tara. Actually I got her call in church right before I went up for communion and to pray at the rail. I left and called her back as I was walking to my car. She asked me to pray for her and of course I already had. I think it'll take her a little bit of time to adjust. She'll be teaching in Manhattan. I put together a Care package for her and that felt good. I hope she gets aclimated. Em fell in her pool today with her clothes on. Silly girl. Sorry I missed it.
life in clifton
What an emotional day. Tara left for NYC and of course I cried my eyes out. Em and I went shopping and Mom was gone for quite some time at Alex's graduation which was nice because I just wanted some alone time to reflect, collect myself. I need to redirect myself in terms of career. It's time for a change. There seems to be many ethical challenges plaquing me right now. I want to be part of a healthy change at work or I want to move into something different. I need to write a couple of essays to gain entry into Empire for my Masters so this week that is my goal. Knowledge excites me so it's okay by me to once agaion be on the path of education. I remember the first Fall in which I wasn't in school: I was so bummed that I actually left work and went to our local college campus and just hung out there. I am a pretty strange duck! Today I'm not sure what I'll do but at some point I must see Click. Both Em & Tara highly recommend it and they are of course my personal Siskel & Ebert.
What an emotional day. Tara left for NYC and of course I cried my eyes out. Em and I went shopping and Mom was gone for quite some time at Alex's graduation which was nice because I just wanted some alone time to reflect, collect myself. I need to redirect myself in terms of career. It's time for a change. There seems to be many ethical challenges plaquing me right now. I want to be part of a healthy change at work or I want to move into something different. I need to write a couple of essays to gain entry into Empire for my Masters so this week that is my goal. Knowledge excites me so it's okay by me to once agaion be on the path of education. I remember the first Fall in which I wasn't in school: I was so bummed that I actually left work and went to our local college campus and just hung out there. I am a pretty strange duck! Today I'm not sure what I'll do but at some point I must see Click. Both Em & Tara highly recommend it and they are of course my personal Siskel & Ebert.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
life in clifton
Well here we are July 1,2006. I didn't say rabbit, rabbit this morning prior to getting out of bed so...... Yesterday OASAS finished their audit and we were faced with many moral and ethical dilemmas. I am proud at the ways in which I've grown over the past ten years. I can now stand up for myself and people on my team. I believe in myself so much more today. I also got a call from TJ asking about Brenda ( an employee) and I think she is going to be hired away from me. I think Brenda's great and have grown really close to her so I'll miss her but it's time for her to fly. Em and Shawn seem to be doing well. Today is Em's last day at work. WOOO HOOO! Lucky her. Tara leaves for NYC today. I so admire her ability to forge a new path. She is courageous and self assured. If I've done anything at all as a parent it's giving my children the ability to believe anything is possible. God knows we never had money but if you have the power of dreams I think you're set. It also speaks to the kind of spirit the girls ( they hate when I lump them together like that) have. I can't say enough how full my heart gets with gratitude when I look at my kids. I have done nothing in my life that warrants the blessings I've received from Em, Tara and Marissa but I'm eternally grateful. I'll write later today. For anyone just passing by this is not the world's most fascinating blog. For us, it's a link between mother and daughter's and sisters and sisters. We are never going to be the type that says I shoulda. WE JUST DO IT. Our mantra, " I will not live my life regretting things I've done. I'm more likely to regret the things I didn't" We got that lesson early on when Em had a chance to dance with the queen at the Renaissance Fair but didn't. Ever since then it's been , " If you get the coice to sit it out or dance WE DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well here we are July 1,2006. I didn't say rabbit, rabbit this morning prior to getting out of bed so...... Yesterday OASAS finished their audit and we were faced with many moral and ethical dilemmas. I am proud at the ways in which I've grown over the past ten years. I can now stand up for myself and people on my team. I believe in myself so much more today. I also got a call from TJ asking about Brenda ( an employee) and I think she is going to be hired away from me. I think Brenda's great and have grown really close to her so I'll miss her but it's time for her to fly. Em and Shawn seem to be doing well. Today is Em's last day at work. WOOO HOOO! Lucky her. Tara leaves for NYC today. I so admire her ability to forge a new path. She is courageous and self assured. If I've done anything at all as a parent it's giving my children the ability to believe anything is possible. God knows we never had money but if you have the power of dreams I think you're set. It also speaks to the kind of spirit the girls ( they hate when I lump them together like that) have. I can't say enough how full my heart gets with gratitude when I look at my kids. I have done nothing in my life that warrants the blessings I've received from Em, Tara and Marissa but I'm eternally grateful. I'll write later today. For anyone just passing by this is not the world's most fascinating blog. For us, it's a link between mother and daughter's and sisters and sisters. We are never going to be the type that says I shoulda. WE JUST DO IT. Our mantra, " I will not live my life regretting things I've done. I'm more likely to regret the things I didn't" We got that lesson early on when Em had a chance to dance with the queen at the Renaissance Fair but didn't. Ever since then it's been , " If you get the coice to sit it out or dance WE DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 29, 2006
life in clifton
Today I received Em's message about Tim's blog and realized that these blogs can be links to past and present. Thanks for the info Em. I also read Pastor Jeff's comment and thought it was quite remarkable to be able to hear from someone so far away yet taking the time to reach out.
I was so sad today thinking about Tara leaving for NYC on Saturday. I wasn't expecting it just out of nowhere tears were streaming down my face. I know I will adjust I always do. The one thing I value more than anything else is being a mom. I fully appreciate the gift that that is. I have so many memories of the girls as they grew to be the fantastic people they are today.
Marissa had her first driver's ed class today. Hope it went well. Last night we caught the mouse:( Okay at this point in my day those are the highlights.
Today I received Em's message about Tim's blog and realized that these blogs can be links to past and present. Thanks for the info Em. I also read Pastor Jeff's comment and thought it was quite remarkable to be able to hear from someone so far away yet taking the time to reach out.
I was so sad today thinking about Tara leaving for NYC on Saturday. I wasn't expecting it just out of nowhere tears were streaming down my face. I know I will adjust I always do. The one thing I value more than anything else is being a mom. I fully appreciate the gift that that is. I have so many memories of the girls as they grew to be the fantastic people they are today.
Marissa had her first driver's ed class today. Hope it went well. Last night we caught the mouse:( Okay at this point in my day those are the highlights.
Monday, June 26, 2006
life in clifton
Today was an absolutely crazy day at work. OASAS is visiting doing a site review of the halfway house and SLF. Last night Marissa saw a mouse in her room and Tara trried to comfort her. When I got up this a.m. Riss was sleeping on the couch. Poor Baby!!!!! We took Tara and Dave to dinner tonight because Tara leaves for the big city on Saturday. Last night Tara and I help Em and Shawn set up their pool. God my kids are great successes at life. They are great believers and that leaves me awestruck most days. I AM THE LUCKIEST !!!!!!!!
Today was an absolutely crazy day at work. OASAS is visiting doing a site review of the halfway house and SLF. Last night Marissa saw a mouse in her room and Tara trried to comfort her. When I got up this a.m. Riss was sleeping on the couch. Poor Baby!!!!! We took Tara and Dave to dinner tonight because Tara leaves for the big city on Saturday. Last night Tara and I help Em and Shawn set up their pool. God my kids are great successes at life. They are great believers and that leaves me awestruck most days. I AM THE LUCKIEST !!!!!!!!
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Stevie created a blog and that inspired me. Not that I have anything all that interesting to share but.... This was a nice experience today in a strange way. Marissa called when I was at church to say that Gary Hanson's wife died today from cancer. That's obviously not the nice part. Gary died last year and Marissa said, " Mom do you think you could pray for his kids? That just really touched me. She also said, "They must have loved each other alot because they were young and they died so close together." Yesterday was Em's birthday. How thankful I am for my children. They bring me such joy......
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