Wednesday, August 29, 2007
So this morning as I was walking the dogs this feeling came over me that was overwhelming. I missed the time when the kids were little, toddlers. I missed the timespan so much I ached. I have never had that feeling before. I am thankful for all the fun things I did with the kids when they were little. Marissa graduates this year and I'm sure that has something to do with it. I saw Em yesterday too and that was nice but short lived. She sat on my lap for a bit while we were looking at the computer and I just hugged her and rested my head on her back. Nice. I heard from Tara and that made me miss her all over again. It's so hard because part of me wants to pick up and go to Colorado and part of me says then you'll miss Em and Marissa. I think it would help if I were able to visit a couple times a year and they came here a couple times. I'm sure it'll all work out. I've decided to pursue a Master's in Voc. Rehab Counseling from University of Wisconsin but can't do it until 08 cuz they are filled up. It's an online program but you go there the first week in August for orientation. I'm sure I thought of school because Sept. is around the corner and I have always loved learning. Who the heck knows? I heard something today that kind of hit me," I am what I have" I never want to be defined by what I have. I always want to be defined by the lives I've touched and I want my legacy to be as an encourager, believer, supporter. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
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Awww...mommy....I love you! In the not too distant future, you will have grandbabies to keep you busy and fill the void of us girls growing up.
No worries, everyone is planning on moving here anyway so you won't have to miss anyone. I already have a job lined up for Em and Shawn and Riss will be closer out here to visit James in Cali. Just give it time! Em's right about the grandbabies...she's going to be pregnant soon! As for me it will be a while. I am with ya on the Riss thing, I can't believe she graduates this year, unbelievable!! Love ya tons!!!
I can't wait for Saturday!!!
What a difference a day makes. 24 little hours..... Em was in a five car pile up on Friday but she wasn't hurt. I find myself thinking about the what ifs though. My car started making this knocking, clanging? sound and it smelled like burning rubber so I have it parked until it gets into the garage next week. Our wonderful neighbors ( Jim & Nancy) are going to let me borrow teir Matrix for the week. Do people get any nicer than that? Em took me out to eat at the Mexican restaurant , dress shopping( I actually founs something) and then for a massage. It was a fantastic day. I told my masseusse I wanted quiet relaxation and she honored that. Em's on the other hand talked throughoutbut she reports still enjoying it. We're going to go again some time and try Beau Monde in Victor. I found myself really missing Tara today and she said I could use her free voucher to fly out if I wanted. I doubt that I'll take her up on that for a couple of reasons 1. She and Dave should use it. 2. I'd have to fly out of Buffalo and into Denver which adds a couple of hours onto travel arrangements. #. I have a 50.00 off deal from jetblue that's good until 10/31 so we'll see what happens with that. Anyway I am reminded to enjoy the NOW. Mr. Dave celebrated another year yesterday. Wow. He's aqccomplished alot in a year. As a matter of fact all the kids have. Don't need to worry 'bout them one little bit. It's a good day to live MacDougal.
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